Mind, Travel

Taking the Rough with the Smooth

So I just had a big cry – the super runny nose, shoulder sobbing, feel sorry for myself cry. I’ve been in Munnar for nearly a month and it’s time to move on. It was time to move on last week but my mini bus was cancelled, it was time yesterday and the bus was cancelled and again today it was cancelled.

I’m not crying cause my bus was cancelled.

I’m crying because it’s the part of my trip where my plan has come to an end. Munnar is safe,  the next step I’m walking into the unknown and yes thats exciting and who knows what’s around the corner but I feel quite lonely and a little bit overwhelmed.

I’m sharing this because there is a tendency for me to project all the good things about my trip…it’s not all plane sailing in my world…I’m very good at getting overwhelmed.

I read an article about the ‘motherhood challenge’ on Facebook which made me reflect on the inadequacy I feel not being a parent. Like by being unable to take part in the challenge I don’t measure up or something (I don’t actually believe that on an intellectual level).

So it got me thinking about the smug chair I’m possibly sitting in whilst being here in India,  not having to work and deal with the everyday normal. I’m not going to lie,  I’m having an awesome time but social media is a funny old beast, just one big vacuum of projecting the good and concealing the bad. I haven’t expressed my monthly (premenstrual) overwhelming cries or that my sleep pattern is buggered or that I feel shit occasionally.  I guess we’re all just human and doing our own thing as best as we can… and wanting to occassionally celebrate the good on social media.

It’s time for a cup of chai I think. What do you think?

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5 Comments

  • Reply Russ February 3, 2016 at 7:55 am

    Travelling is hard. It’s also lonely. Many times when I’m away I just want to click my fingers and be back at home just for one night and then be back in whatever land I’m in. It’s not that I want to go home, it’s just that I want some familiarity around me for a while. However, EVERYTHING you need is inside. It’s not on social media, it’s not in India and it’s not at home. All of those things provide elements of what you do and don’t need but when you strip it all away, you’re still you no matter what soil you’re standing on. And in my mind, that’s a good thing.

    ‘You take what you need and you leave the rest’ The Band – The Night They Drove Old Dixie Down

    x

    • Reply Lesley February 3, 2016 at 8:15 am

      Ah Russ – just teary eyed brilliantly beautiful! Thank you! X

      • Reply Russ February 3, 2016 at 12:00 pm

        You’re welcome. Travel safe x

  • Reply Mummy bear February 3, 2016 at 3:31 pm

    Yes it’s time for a cuppa my dear lesley Keith’s just put the kettle on.sending you loads of hugs .
    Mummy bear.xxxxxxx

    • Reply Lesley February 3, 2016 at 3:50 pm

      Thanks xxxx

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